Posted at 7:00 am
So is this a blog about me, cancer or my mother?
I can see why you might be confused at this point, but stay with me. I’m trying to make a point here. There is a relationship here between the loss of my mother and the way I have dealt and am dealing with my cancer.
Posted at 4:00 pm
A couple of years after Mum died, Hope Edelman’s book Motherless Daughters: The Legacy of Loss was published. She wrote the book after her mum passed away when she was 17 and had searched bookstores and libraries for some kind of guidance to cope with the loss. She never found anything satisfactory so she wrote her own book. And that’s when I found it and finally felt like I was reading something that just ‘got me’ and validated how I was feeling.
Posted at 8:00 am
Today I am older than my mother. What does this mean? Did I win?
Next month it will be 25 years since she passed away. According to my calculations, she was 44 years and 137 days old. As our birthdays are about a month apart – mine is 6 March and hers is 5 April – that means I’ve outlasted her lifetime. I think. I think that’s what I’m trying to say.
Posted at 11:00 am
To blog or not to blog? That is the question.
A few people have tried to encourage me over the past couple of years to start blogging about my experiences, my ‘journey’ (ugh), or my self-discovery through a diagnosis of cancer (and there is no self-discovery so what’s the point?).